Wow, I didn't realize how long it's been since I last wrote. With National Infertility Awareness Week coming up next week, I've been doing some thinking. Lately, I feel like I haven't been the infertile woman struggling to have a baby. My thoughts haven't been consumed with creating a family. It's been so refreshing. I'm not exactly sure what happened, but we are in such a good place right now. You'd think that after two failed treatments it would be the exact opposite, but we are so happy. So much so that I stopped going to my infertility support group. The last couple of times I went, I left there feeling so sad and depressed. I realized that right now in our journey, the support group is not supporting me the way it's meant to. I'm honestly not even thinking about our infertility right now.
I feel like the longer that we are childless, the more appealing the lifestyle becomes. At this point, pregnancy announcements, pregnant women and babies just don't bother me that much. That is such a huge difference from where I was one year ago! There is something so freeing about being able to do whatever we want, whenever we want. And I can't even begin to describe how much fun it is to live in a small, awesome town where we can ride our bikes downtown and enjoy a beer and appetizers at a local brewery before riding back home again, or go hang out by the river behind the house, or go for a hike on any number of the mountains around here. There is a healing power to the mountains and river. I realize I sort of sound like a hippie and I think I might be turning into one a little bit, but if you guys could come live where we are, you'd get it. The best way for me to describe it is to say that we've basically been on vacation since we moved here more than 8 months ago. It's fabulous!
I'll probably write a blog post next week to participate in the bloggers unite program for NIAW. Even though I feel like our infertility is not front and center in our lives right now and I've definitely backed off of the blog, I'm still passionate about educating people, raising money and getting the word out that if you are one of the 1 in 8 couples, you are not alone. So many people deal with infertility. I feel like I learn about someone new in my life almost every other day. It's important for me to let these people know that they are not alone and the feelings they are feeling are normal. I've said it a millions times, but I'm saying it again, infertility sucks!
I'm not sure what the future holds. I'm not sure if we'll have kids or not, but right now, I don't care. I think for the first time in my life, I am not stressing about the future. I'm not worried about what might happen. I'm truly living in the moment and going with the flow and it feels so great!
And now for your viewing pleasure, some pictures from the last few months. A couple of weekends ago my brother and his girlfriend and their puppy came to visit and we drove to Telluride (probably one of the most beautiful places I've seen in my entire life), and came home through Ridgeway, Ouray and Silverton. The mountains on this drive are breathtaking. There are honestly no words to describe the absolute beauty and awesomeness of this part of Colorado. I wish I had more pictures, but luckily I live here and I'm sure we'll go again! Enjoy, I know I do!
View from our deck with Snow!
Pretty snow covered trees
More snow covered trees
Kash loves the snow and his Christmas pjs!
Taking a walk in the snow
Michael loves his new toy
New scarf and beanie made with love by our friend Becky!
Kash loves his new toys
Ryan loves his new toys. Ha!
New Years Eve
Picture before my birthday dinner
Pooped out after their haircut
Snowshoeing for the first time!
We love snowshoeing!
Going for a drive to Telluride
Amazing mountains on the way to Telluride
Beautiful snow covered mountains.
And still more
Baby Ella (my brother and his girlfriends puppy) is queen of the mountains!
Bridge in Telluride
Us on the bridge
Frozen waterfall in Telluride
Lookout right outside of Ouray with my brother and his girlfriend
Ryan and Michael hanging out in the grass
Getting ready to go for a walk
So much fun!
Stop for beer
The four of us getting ready to ride back home
Lots of elk
Kashy doing a little yoga
Michael just hanging out