Wow, it's been awhile since I've posted. Today marks 6 weeks since we've been in Durango. I can't really say I've been too busy to write because, in all honestly, I've been blessedly un-busy! It has been fabulous! Life here is so much different, it's slower, way more relaxing and I LOVE it!! I thought that I would experience some homesickness at some point, but so far, nothing. I don't miss Arizona. I obviously miss my family and friends, but we've had so many visitors already that I haven't had a chance to miss people. And I think that I'm just so at peace here, that I haven't given it much thought. I needed this. We needed this. I said it before, but I had no idea how much we needed to just slow down. It's truly amazing to me the effect this move has had on our lives. Did I say how happy I am??
In the 6 weeks since we've been here, I haven't given infertility too much thought. I did, however, go to the Durango infertility support group last night. This decision came after a dinner we had last week. We went to dinner for Ryan's birthday and there was a table of two women sitting right behind us. I could hear their conversation and it was infertility related. I wanted to turn around and say, "I totally understand!! I get what you are saying, and you aren't alone. Want to be my friend?" Ha, but I didn't. That would have been really strange and I doubt I would have made a friend that way, so I decided to go to the support group instead. I realized that I miss talking about it. I miss that shared experience with women who truly get it. I miss the relationships and friendships that are made at a support group.
I'm feeling great right now. I'm not feeling sad or depressed or upset because we can't have a baby, but the desire to talk about it is still there. Since my diagnosis, one of my goals has always been to help people. Even if to just say, you are not alone, and I will continue to do that here!
And now for your viewing pleasure, more Durango pictures!!
Backyard View
Bear in the river!!!!
Same bear after he swam across the river.
Different bear saying Hi.
Just walking across the street.
Me and my baby Kashy
Blue Moon
Ryan's feet while sitting on the deck looking at the Blue moon.
Not the most flattering picture but whatever. Looking at the blue moon.
Blue moon.
More moon.
Bakers Bridge (this picture was taken with my phone and I did nothing to change the colors). Amazing place!!
My mom and I eating our burritos at Bakers Bridge.
Hike. The leaves are starting to change!!! I'm so excited to see this for the first time ever!
Relaxing by Spud Lake after our hike.
Us by the lake.
Michael loves to hike!
More beautiful leaves!
Fall is in the air!
So pretty!
Kash and me again! He's just so cuddly.
More bears!!! I love them (from the deck)!
Deer in the backyard.
Hi
Kash in the window. He jumped up there all by himself. Such a funny dog!
I'll will try my hardest not to go another month without writing, but I make no guarantees. I'm just so relaxed here. Best. Decision. Ever!!!!
~Tonya
